This one put me in my place

Originally written on Mar 2, 2007


There is NOTHING like being put in your place. That special moment, where you realized without a doubt how an ideal or self-reality you hoped/dreamed/thought had its own little set place in the universe did not in fact exists. And having found that out, you again realize, you are really the loser those kids in elementary school said you were.

Imagine, feeling that you are the life of the party, the unpaid entertainment that wins you the free ticket to some good munchies and a round of beverages. Imagine, for one second that you are the popular friend in your little circle whom everyone loves to hang out because of your witticism and charm. Imagine, your children brag to *their* friends about how cool and funny and extremely smart their own mother is, and she even proves it on a semi-bi-nearly tri-weekly rate on an internet blog…

…When in fact you are not.

The premise my story of stems from wanting to toot my own horn, show myself how important I am to the people in my life. It all came crashing down to one little click; the My Readers link on my MySpace Blog. Imagine my utter shock seeing only ONE person. ONE PERSON!! WUUUUUUUUONNNNN PPPEERRRRRSSSSSON subscribed to my blogs!

Granted, I love Jamie to death for putting up with my random thoughts, incoherent ramblings and the total destruction of the English language set to screen. He is a brave soul and deserves some sort of metal, to be sure. But I had hoped that others were benefiting from my words of wisdom, and alas, 'tis not true. Where am going with this, I am not certain, but I do feel much better for ranting, and I thank you, my ONE and ONLY audience member for not throw that rotten tomato you are holding your hand…

APPEND~ I do only have one subscriber, my lovely, talented and I wanna grow up to be just like her one day cousin Sissy. I don't mind, I just find it funny that 5 years later I am in the same boat. - Cathy Maccabee 12/13/12